About me............. should I have completed this box 7 months ago, I would have known what to write.. but birthing your greatest love, then burying them and having to figure out how to be in the world thereafter completely scrambles your soul, mind and being. What I used to love and enjoy, feels impossible to access right now... but I know that that's OK, this is just what happens after trauma and grief arrive. You may find this happens to you too, please just be kind and gentle with yourself when it happens xx
I live in Cornwall with my loving partner and bat-sh*t-crazy puppy, both of whom I owe my life to for keeping me going throughout this nightmare. Alas, here we are; all 3 of us still wake each morning, go gently (puppy less so) and take each hour as it comes. And 6 months since involuntarily becoming members of the Loss Mum community, with our daughter dancing on blossom and sunbeams, I find myself channeling my grief into connection, compassion and support - creating The Quiet Mother, a (small) range of Postpartum and Grief journals (look in shop) and a list of ventures to fill-the-gap I have discovered during my time navigating baby loss.
When it comes to my career, it is completely cut in two. I have worked in children's safeguarding, therapeutic communication, youth suicide prevention, child and adolescent mental health and am currently supporting survivors of sexual violence. Whereas the Yin realm of my career is sacred birthwork, children's meditation teacher, women's health practitioner, child & mother holistic therapist.
And yet, even with a brimming library of experiences of such intense yet beautiful work, I now feel clueless, vulnerable and trying to find my way in the dark. However, I am a firm believer in sitting in the experience and emotion, resting there with a cuppa while it carries out its purpose, then ever so gently stepping out... and breathing.
I truly am sorry that you're here, experiencing what you are, and contemplating expanding your village for such a highly sensitive and painful time. Do keep going my love.. just do one hour or even one minute at a time. Have no expectations on yourself (at all, like.. literally none) and allow yourself to receive support.
Alba and I see you, we love you and we're here at your side.
You're going to be ok xxx